July 31st, 2005
Photo Friday – Somber
I posted on Londo here forever ago. He still looks like the saddest creature I’ve ever met.
Not counting the bears at Birmingham Zoo. Those were some sad ass bears.
I posted on Londo here forever ago. He still looks like the saddest creature I’ve ever met.
Not counting the bears at Birmingham Zoo. Those were some sad ass bears.
When I was around 7 or 8, I had a pet Doberman pinscher named Suzanna. She was friendly and loyal and was always happy to see me.
For whatever reason, my dad had her chained to her doghouse next to my grandparents place(their house was immediately next to ours). She stayed there until I let her loose and we’d go and play around the houses.
One day I went to unchain her and she was gone. I freaked out. I called and whistled and about 10 minutes later she came running up to me, waging her stump of a tail and greeted me with a smile.
I scolded her for running off. Then I petted her and showered her with, “that’s a good girl,” before I noticed the chain we used to keep her leashed was broken.
A chain(albeit rusty) leash was broken.
That’s definitely Stronger than Groonk.
Now this was a tiny-ish domesticated canine. I can only imagine what happens if your pet hyena pulls a Chief Bromden.
Another night of studying late. You think I would have learned better at my late age.
I have not.
Looking over my notes for Myth and Ritual, an upper level English class, I found a page from one of my notebooks loosely crammed inside my canvas backpack. The page had torn from it’s tablet anchor and was crumpled and bent at the bottom of the bag.
On this page was a note, three words long, that I had written to myself only weeks ago. The words were, “Follow your bliss.”
Now I know this note was important to me because I had drawn an irregular rectangle around it. This is my way of denoting important things on paper. Because of this, I even remember where the quote came from.
We were watching one of the many PBS documentary-like programs on Joseph Campbell. Campbell, if you recall, was one of the main influences on Mr George Lucas’ Star Wars movies. The series was often dry and caused my mind to wander to better places more often than not, but this one time I actually heard what the man was saying.
“Follow your bliss,” said Campbell, “and it’s almost like you get helping hands to push you along your path.”
At least that’s how I remember his quote.
Just this summer I decided to follow my bliss academically and it is almost as if these “helping hands” are all about me. Gently guiding me to the calm places, the easy places, and making sure that I learn what I need to know.
Before I made my landmark personal decision, these same hands were pushing me into trains or slapping me under buses. So I’m guessing that the hands don’t know sign language else they would have told I was on the wrong path in a more reasonable fashion.
I’m not saying that I agree with all of Campbell’s views. Nor do I think there are physical invisible appendages that know what’s best for my life or anyone else’s.
That would be crazy talk.
I only know that what I heard that day rang true. So I keep it safely tucked away in a well lit corner of my mind.
So here I sit. Hastily typing up study sheets and writing a research paper in my head and I’m not worried. I know it will get done and by this time tomorrow I’ll most likely be awake because I fell asleep as soon as class is finished and I make it back to my nice, soothing bed..
This “not worrying” thing is new to me. I’m not sure if it’s a sagacious calm or simply ignorance of the situation.
I’ll choose the former.
I believe this is my first Matrix brand. It was also an experiemnt in making an animated gif that flowed seamlessly.
I failed at that part.
I even gave you a choice. The blue pill choice was the same back then, too. Well, almost the same. I have since made it more specific.
Funny how nothing changes.
Major character:
Minor character:
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…too quiet.
Hard Drive died.
There was a funeral.
Flowers. Crying. Lost porn.
Very sad.
Hope to be back up to snuff soon.
In the meantime, have a rainbow.
Fear can stop you loving
Love can stop your fear
Fear can stop you loving
But it’s not always that clear
—Morcheeba “Fear & Love“