I usually drop quotes under this title but today I?m going a different direction. Mostly cause Christmas came early for this kid:
7d stood in line roughly 10 hrs in some part of L.A. to get that sucker signed for me. Though he was getting his own copies too so it wasn?t totally altruistic, but 10 hours, damn. I?m not sure I could have held out that long. Even if one of my writing/entrepreneur gods, Kevin Smith, was the main attraction, 10 hours is a mighty long time to wait in a line.
I?m glad 7d did. I?ll have to buy him a Coke.
After receiving Clerks X, I went straight to the third disc containing all the DVD extras and other bullshit. The main extra, ?Snowball Effect,? proved to be inspirational. I figured I would get some filmmaking knowledge from the whole deal but the inspiring bit took me by the short-hairs.
The similarities between Smith and I are weird. We both grew up in similar bumble-fuck areas and that same kind of coasting-through-life sense that hit him in his early twenties while mine hit me recently (early thirties thank you very much). You would think that would give me more grief, considering the dark mood I?ve been in the past few weeks. It?s the kind of mood that always happens when I?m left alone for long periods of time. This time it Kevin?s extras had a different effect.
Over the last 5-6 years, I put a ton of energy into getting out of this piece of Hell I call Huntsville, with intentions of pursuing my main goals after I got where I was going. The Universe has smacked my hand away from my first goal each fucking time. I?m done with that. Today, I?m going to put all my effort into my main goals, writing and filmmaking.
This site was a good start since it got me to put words in a decent order on a regular basis. It also holds a wealth of other crap I can troll when I?m deadlocked for an idea. I merely need to carry my efforts to the next step.
Right?
I only need to put my energy into something constructive and make something from nothing. Damn the First Law of Thermodynamics, it will be done! And damn other peoples? ideas on what they think is best for me. They may have my interests at heart, but they?re useless to me since I have to live my life the way I see fit.
I sure talk big don?t I?
I should frame this entry so I don?t forget this feeling.
